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[03 Apr 2007|07:30pm] |
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I've been delaying restarting to blog because I convinced myself that in order to spill my life for perfect strangers, I must have a clean start.
This isn't a clean start. It's the opposite; my brain is twisted and folded and jumbled up, and I am being pulled at all sides by conflicts, both the real ones, and the ones I invent for myself. I am going to actually keep up with livejournal this time. That's probably a lie. Probably, five weeks from now I'll remember to check anything but my friends page and I'll realize that this is just another forgotten resolution.
So, what has Jay been doing?
I think I am the most self deprivating person ever to hate their skin, face, body, personality, lack of ability to focus their eye muscles on two planes of vision at the same time. I spend entire periods in school focusing between the tip of my pen and the teacher's head. Poking it off isn't as easy as it seems to be, as the two objects are so far apart that it is impossible to focus them together.
Well.
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